Quest for the Answer

When I think about this it makes me more and more confused and lost. Whenever I find myself at the end of certain phase or episode in life I would never be able to trace back the path that lead to that consequence or the “ending”. I really don't mean the chain of thoughts that led to that ending. Whatever the solution or the “right decision” is for an issue or a problem it has been decided. Some might cause regrets, others might cause joy. Sometimes the decision making process is so fast that we are not ready for the 'whats coming next!'. But is the personality (or personalities - if there is more than one inside me, could be the one who is thinking all this?) which helped me find the answer or the “perceived right” direction or the “right” path really an entity with its own will, able to wright its own destiny. Power of Will? Is there anything as such? Aren't we all binded by infinite number of incidents happening all around the Universe (or perhaps universes) , ultimately affecting each other like the effects of multiple ripple formation on a lake, only infinite in number? Every incident/event affecting the other , just like a Butterfly Effect! LOVE TAT MOVIE.. Or the Sound of Thunder!!

The difference between a child and a grownup is that a kid will always feel and even realize for sure that he/she is the center of this world; we as grownups have realized that it is completely untrue and there is no center whatsoever! A child once believed that he could fly until his mother makes him believe that it is not possible for man to fly. Could the child really have flown like superman? Ofcourse, nobody saw him! A man believes that he is perfectly healthy until he goes for a routine checkup and is told he has cancer. The man dies after a couple of months due to cancer. Is Belief so important? What about Fate or Destiny? A person smokes tons of cigarettes and never gets any smoking related disease in his life. Another maintains a strict life with no harmful consumption of any kind, and this man dies of lung cancer! Ironic? Fate? Someone saved all his life so that he could enjoy after retirement without having to worry about cash to live in comfort. He dies the next day after his retirement. A couple tried to have kids several times and every time the wife conceived, miscarriage followed after a couple of months even after taking the best precaution they could. The last time she conceived the child came out perfectly stable and healthy even after a long bumpy ride of hundreds of miles in the last row of a bus trying to reach a a bed ridden parent who was sick. Ironic? Fate? Destiny?

Life takes us thru all the journeys and lessons and at some point we think that we have learnt almost everything. Well almost? Yet at every phase of life, at every page, at every turning we are left with some lesson or some thought that had escaped us before. Sometimes life seems to be an endless process of thought accumulation in us, inside us (somewhere in the brain?) until the day we die! But then for what purpose. What bigger picture? Or is it even necessary to have a purpose or a bigger picture for everything? May be. To me if you look around it seems like everything has small purposes and a bigger purpose is met by all these smaller purposes. But check this out......

If we have to take humans out of this whole scene of existence is this universe there wont be much change except only some positive changes that will help the existence on earth. So the whole universe is still there without us and more prosperous as far as our planet is concerned. So we don't seem to have much purpose here. Or are we missing the bigger picture? We will never know if we actually go extinct! So how do we actually know things that we cannot otherwise know? Hence, sometimes the bigger picture will never come to light or cannot come to light like the above case. For me this creates an emptiness inside me. The feeling that there are things and thoughts that I cannot have or realize. This feeling takes me back to another question. If we don't know the purpose of life, is it worth living? Pessimistic... ? Think about it....

Global Enlightenment

One October morning when I went to the local ATM to withdraw some cash I realized that the so called 'Global Recession' has effected me too! Just a common man earning his living month by month and spending it month by month with no savings. I had to fetch out 10k to 'bail-out' a close relative out of his share of the "global financial mess" of today. I earn around 20+k. Now half of it is gone and I'm in the process of moving to a better(read cheaper) location. So, my very intention of moving to a new location is associated with my financial standings. Who knows that it is also not associated with this recession? Is the world really becoming smaller day by day that a financial wave in America could blow me off sitting here in Bangalore? Will we every see the real picture? Are we capable of looking at the big picture? Are ants capable of pondering about how we humans build ships and planes? Maybe they are? Maybe they are not? But who will decide? The ants off-course! But what if the ant does not want to decide or even bother about the whole crap that we men do? Then they just got Chance to act upon itself and topple Man's regime to save the ants from human tyranny. Lol!

Some of us think that we are the 'higher' beings. But what if we are not? We think that animals may never have the knowledge that we possess. But what if they possess a better knowledge then us? I am sure that they would never have become the cause of 'global warming' or environmental pollution or any other kind of man-created havocs existing today. Or am I? Just as we think that we are the masters of this world, we would also like to think that there is a superior-supernatural master over us overlooking us! Just like the first one the second one may as well be fake perception generated over thousands of years or may be even passed on to generation thru 'gene-mutation' or something. First of all the very idea of 'heaven' & 'hell' seem so 'ungodly' but would seem like an alien oppression if not something more 'natural'. And also the idea that we have an identity that is much higher in nature against other animals like assuming a 1^st class priority in Nature. Everything we do has a benefit 'for Man' attached to it. I don't think we have the capability to see the big picture.

Maybe. May be we are just a fluke of Nature; a wrong adventure that Nature is trying to make right. Hence whats happening around the world today. The lives of all of us are becoming more interconnected and hence inter-dependent with each other;More comfort means more laziness; more advancement and sophisticated machine means more free time and that means more people have time to 'ponder on how to make life more comfortable and have more diversity in what we do and have' and that in turn means faster pace of development which leads to more plundering; plundering leads to more scarcity of resources which will give rise to a chain of events and consequences. All these are going to hit equally to everybody. Unless we have something like a 'Global Enlightenment' or something like a collective realization.

Super Computer God

If only we had a computer collecting data on events at all times and at all places in this universe! We would get an all knowing supercomputer. A person with that computer will be able to manipulate everything. Heard of the Omnipotent/All-powerful God?